back to square -1 or -10000

[cat03]

thanks PS, will keep my eyes up ahead, right now my H is still going to T, though sometimes I feel we're back in that place where I'm trying to make things good and happy andhe's just coasting along, I have to find the line where I stop myself from carrying this M again, I won't do it but also I don't want to stay still and wait for things to fall on my lap.

It's the first month, many more to come, he is still pretty quiet, keeps to himself, though that has always been his nature. *sigh* I have to chase bad thoughts from my head now and then (about having a friend to make me feel good) I know where such friendships lead, sometimes I just want to feel wanted.

Anyways.... then I see you guys, PS, fighting the good fight, and remember to behave myself