Corri - So. Given what I have just said to you... make an attempt to throw out your own answers, and let's go from there. This is hard. Very Hard. My H's EA/PA? (always denied) was 7 years ago. I still have trust issues. Whenever a situation arises where I have "concern" my D sky rockets. Ok, maybe not every time. Sometimes I get an "I don't care attitude", I can't make him turn to me instead of someone else. BUT, then I have the internal dialogue, the drama, the chaos of what if? Maybe it's that I have learned to re-connect with him through sex, when I am feeling dis-connected. Sometimes I have felt like Gwyn, better to just throw in the towel. I read the BB to know I am not the only person going through this, to know others have succeeded, I can too. Yet, the pain is still as if it happened yesterday, so will I ever get over it? Is that good, that I re-live and therefore make sure "I" am aware of "my" part in the problem or is it my problem now and something I may never get past? I think I am rambling and off subject, it may no longer be SSM but rather after the affair... 7 years later and I haven't dealt with the emotions & ramifications.
Love at first sight is easy to understand; it's when two people have been looking at each other for a lifetime that it becomes a miracle. (Amy Bloom)
