Exh is acting wonderful. I feel like we are getting closer and closer. I really struggle internally....by his actions and with me not snooping things between us would be great. I would never know by the way he treats me that OW is still lurking. It's only by my snooping. So, do I act 'as if' and go with that? Or do I keep up the snooping, distrust, and insecurity?
I don't know if you are religious in any way, but I went to my women's small Bible study this morning. Nobody knows the struggles I am having with OW. But one of the topics was changing my attitude in me and my actions and how I respond to things. I have really been praying that OW be struck down....lol. That she be revealed for the horrible person that she is and all of the hatred I feel for her. I felt today that I should be praying that she have a change of heart in what she is doing and realize this is wrong. I know I will still waver and have the hatred and anger, but at least it points me in a more peaceful direction.
Jak, I reread your posts and I am amazed that you are so strong. I give you alot of credit in how you have handled things.
Me: 46 FWS: 36 Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07 Baby Girl born 3/08 Kicked him out because OW: 7/08 5/10 He realized what he had and lost. Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!
