FLTC I would have to say staying thin helps much. I've dropped 30lbs since doing the lifeguard gig and a daily 5mi walk with Gertrude our air tank full of sand at 55 lbs.
Now your Soldiers do a 80-110lb combat load with double those miles and a fight in between so it's bush league on the Gulf Coast for PT.
Hopeless was feeling worthless, little brain trauma, and the true fact I failed to make memories with my X. I spent two years pretty much hiding out researching 1. What went wrong 2. What was my part in that. (Cannot fix hers so I disguarded that) 3. How does one fix it? 4. Getting a vision of what I want my maker to say on my life after Iraq and a vision of what I want to do with the remainder of my time. When your self vision is a dad and husband and you are on your own as CS Lewis stated once "How shall we then live?"
I'm like a dog chasing cars I have no idea what to do with them once I catch them but the chase is fun and known upfront to be harmless. It's just BS and light flirting. Always a gentleman and no harm.
Getting a focus and vision is primary with confidence and a devil may care aditude toward the much better looking sex is next. Women love to relax and have fun.
I make mistakes (learning opportunities) daily. My biggest screwup is getting too serious or taking myself too seriously. Honestly I read relaxing and not worring about the outcome will unlock the creative side.
I just wish to ensure my D13 can go to college if she wants and will live in a hole if that will achieve the objective. Outside of that I have no worries.
When I receive word on the physical exam then it's the unit I will select. Probably go with a hospital unit then get cross assigned to a USMC Company so if they pull silly things as sometimes they do I pull the "Commander said" card. Otherwise I'm an E6 going against 06s for funds and training dollars. Been there done that the T shirt was cut from the budget.
I understand the temptation bro. I'm celibate cause I'm as smooth as a pothole and I simply have no interest in creating more drama than I can handle. We can set a soul on fire (Read a Gal Song of Solomon chapter 7) however does one have the ability or desire to keep it there. No wish to do unto others what I have no desire to have done to me so we keep it lite.
You got brains, probably brawn, lots of leadership experience and confidence in your abilities, good direction, and like me failure to make memories with a lot of bad luck thrown in for keepers.
I have some ladies who are good friends who tell me 1. Notice the little things. Feet, hair, earrings, Now it's tattos, perfume, color of dress, shoes (especially the shoes) 2. Always a gentleman 3. Stay in shape 4. Whatever have fun. That is why I waited so long to clean out the junk so I could. It's a long road with bad pavement.
Try it on your W if possible. If it fails it's her loss. Best Wishes for you / Nasty things for the Muj or Ali Babba as my Iraqi part time friends and part time muj used to say.
"All I want is a weeks pay for a day's work" Steve Martin
