I just had a fantasy conversation whereby her truck was being repossessed (entirely within the realm of possibility) and she called asking me to bail her out. In my fantasy conversation I redirected her to the OP, who I said I was sure would be more than happy to come to the new-found soulmate's rescue.
With time this seems to suck more and more, though. I think I need to see her come crashing down to earth. While I still (insanely?) cannot stand the thought of her being hurt so badly because I know how it feels, I am begging, pleading, imploring the universe to have the OP abruptly break up with her after this almost 3 weeks of nirvana. Now. Right now. If anyone knows anything of magic, now would be the time to pass on any helpful spells.... I'm starting to not believe in karma, because if there was such a thing, my partner wouldn't be living in fantasy camp with exactly who she asked for and pursued in order to be with, while I'm stuck in the reality of the bills, heartbreak, and shattered trust. If there is karma, why has she landed on her feet after destroying everything, while I did everything I could to be there for her with a pure heart and now find myself on the floor? Why does the OP also always come out on top?? How do I compete with my partner's magical thinking about her fantastic new life? It's like she's joined a cult-- where she just keeps saying how happy she is and how happiness comes from within and then everything falls into place. So then how come she needed another person to make her happy? She didn't do any soul searching to find out how to make herself happy in her own skin. She went looking in someone else's skin to get happy again. When does reality come into play?
"In every marriage more than a week old, there are grounds for divorce. The trick is to find, and continue to find, grounds for marriage." -- Robert Anderson
