Been thinking 'bout you, my man. Smell the burning of brain cells?
Okay. I think I see where you and I got off track. I was being theoretical using real life situation... and you were just being literal.... and probably feeling attacked by me in the process.
So. If you don't mind... I'd like to try again. Understand that I am coming at this from a philosophical/theoretical sense. I may make statements that sound absolute. Please understand... I am talking out loud... and if you find anything I say to be inaccurate, just tell me.
So. When I asked you why you didn't discuss your day with Mrs. Cac... you gave me the whole example of what happened that day, yes? Now... what **I** heard you saying was... I don't like to bring my negativity home. Good. And then I asked in my Corri brain... why did he see/feel his day in a negative light? I asked you to further clarify, and you told me what happened...
However... in TELLING the story, YOU put it in a negative context, because the frustration you seemed to be feeling was all based on the fact that you are NOT a programmer... and if you WERE... there would be no dam problem. (yes? no?) END THOUGHT.
So I'm thinking... well... you aren't a programmer, so why tell the story in the context of "I'm NOT a programmer? That's a negative. Everything you say after that will be negative (i.e., The program WON'T work and I CAN'T fix it. I WON'T feel better until those crappy software writers do their job... the RIGHT WAY!)
That's a truth, but a negative truth.
If you said... "I'm a network engineer. I ran into a problem today that I'm having trouble solving... I think I have pinpointed the problem, and I have asked for help. I feel frustrated that I have to wait, because I have work to do."
See the difference?
So when I brought up the whole pilot thing... and this is just a guess on my part...
I think if I said to Cac, who are you? I think, at the very core, you would say to me... "I am a pilot. But I am a pilot that CAN'T fly.
And because you hold THAT in your heart... everything that comes after that sentence, no matter what you say, think, feel, or do... is going to have a negative truth in front of it. It will color your entire existence that way.
