What kind of converstation?

[yawmom]

I had wished there was a little more support here -- I'm crushed and NEED it.
3 weeks ago H told me he and OW quit seeing each other ..now I find out he hasn't. We've been having great conversations on the phone and he even said he might be able to swing by the house a week earlier, then he met up with her again.

He's suppose to come home for granddaughters b'day party next week. I'm going to have the bills in order, ideas of what we should do since he mentioned D << I don't want it. I dont' know how I'll hold up, I can't imagine holding up at all.

He's rearranged his deposit so Im sure I won't be getting as much as I had, which scares me too.

He tries to talk to S about OW and said "she says she can't live without me"...my S doesn't want to hear it or get involved but he didn't tell H that. I told S he's looking for approval, just tell him you don't want to hear it. S of course doesn't agree with H.
I know I can live without him, I'd just rather not.

So. I've got to talk to H tomorrow about bills, thought I'd bring up the S talk. Do I ask him when he plans on filing? Do I wait and ask after the party? I just don't want to get screwed on the bills too.

I overanalyze looking for solutions and there aren't any. I'm distraught. I've been through a lot in my life and now this. I know life isn't fair but I need a break!

Please Please...any type of help I'm open to.
thx