It was great to hear about your retreat and your new outlook on life - especially about giving yourself and other some joy everyday. Thats an excellent suggestion and I am trying to follow that myself.
Thanks also for sharing the info on the book and the website. I am just devouring all the books I can and listening to tapes as well.
Coming full circle on the issue of MLC and childhood - I think you hit a very strong note. As the sitch begins, we men are sometimes too analytical about figuring out what could have been wrong with our WAW's childhood and background that led her to be abducted by alien. But you are not going to be able to let go and "grow up" until you look inside yourself and face your own upbringing - be it the "passive trauma" or "covert depression". I have been going through this and it has been a turning point for myself.
I have been a wreck last few days since my W was served the D papers 2 days ago and that was my only option to protect my 2 DDs from seeing her OM every night with her. But the most uplifting thing that has kept me going is this new revelation about myself on how my "passive trauma" was preventing me from "growing up" and taking the posture that God wanted us men to take with our W. In the long run I still want to continue DBing and hope that my lovely W joins me in the journey called life. But if not, I still want to remember her for all the good and happy memories that we spent together. I thing deciding on the D papers was the best step I could have taken for "dropping the rope" since my W kept seeing though my "passive trauma" and threatening with D that she never followed thru. I had to do some self-catharsis to get to that decision point where I needed to take control and not let her (not my W, but the alien in her) hurt me anymore. I feel better about being right and being truthful in my reincarnation and my DDs hopefully will look up to me in the future for the action I took!
I am so excited to hear you and W engaging in small talk with a touch of R. I feel that you have taken the best steps forward to develop your spirit and she can't help but see it in you. Your move to the new apartment, your voracious reading habits and your new outlook on life will all help to streamline her thoughts about you. But more than anything else, it will help you feel better about "living for the moment".
