For what it's worth, I just want to say how sorry I am to hear of your situation. Home should be a special place, and to lose it is painful. Acknowledge that pain, but then keep doing the things you are doing. Wine, candles, pets--small but important sources of joy in our lives. Keep doing the small things and you will be on a better path. You have shown remarkable strength and courage; those traits will serve you well as you begin a new life. Take care, and go make some joy, no matter how small, for yourself and others today.