W phoned tonight , said I need to talk to you about something . I think Uh Oh . Anyway after about 5 mins of small talk she gets to the point and its only about getting the TV put on at her apartment and when can I do it. Then she talks about some people we know and how she will be seeing them on saturday night and she is worried about how they be with her. I just said I think you will find people are more understanding than you think. Then she rambled a bit about how she is still unsure about what she wants and where she is headed , said its early days yet . I really just listened for a bit said I understand then cut her short ( nicely) . W said OK dear I will see you tommorrow . Now thats the first time shes called me dear for it seems like forever. A slip of the tongue perhaps while her defences were down but a surprise for me.
What do I make of this ? without getting into guessing , fact is if she is going to the trouble of getting me to put a satelite dish in for her then shes planning on staying there a while. That is good for two reasons. 1stly it means she has stalled on the idea of moving to a bigger place and taking D to live with her for a while at least, also she is not going to try and come home too soon ( if at all).
It was only today I was thinking it may be time to move on , does the WAS have some sort of pshycic link that tells them when its time to throw a little something out there so we dont drift too far away?
I keep getting the feeling that the message hidden in all this turmoil is " give me time , I cant guarantee anything but I am not as far away as you may think ".
