All hope is lost/help

[Evie]

Cat - R u ok? haven't heard in a couple of days.

Just wanted to tell you that H bathed and put the S's to bed last night as he agreed to do and I sat and read my book for a while and then went to my yoga class. I was pleasant when I came in but I didn't sit and chat as i normally would. I just felt that maybe i'm not emotionally distant enough with him which may lead him to believe that I think the situation is back to normal with nothing more or nothing less. I am waffling and probably not making any sense? I want him to notice that I am stronger and not so needy and dependant on him.

I was a bit down yesterday. I asked him very casually last week if he would like to come to cinema with me on Friday after work. he said he would be too tired, yet yesterday he told me he was going out for a curry with mates after work on friday, I couldn't help but feel the blow and take it personally.

I feel like flat mates at the moment, except I look after him. I guess this is normal?

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