Now I've done it... again

[nephartiti]

I don't know what's wrong with me. I have been an emotional mess for the last two days. I feel like I am back to square one.

Back to school night was a bust. I sat in that room listening to the teachers present their class outlines and I started fuming. I know this is misplaced, but I started thinking of my H and how I struggled with him to get him into teaching. How I pulled overnighters with him so many times getting his student teacher assignments done, lesson planning and grades his first year, baking muffins for the credentialing coordinator when he didn't make his deadline. All that for what? So he can have an A w/ a fellow teacher? These teachers that pride themselves on leading our future while they are secretly breaking up families?

Sorry, MK, I know you are a wonderful teacher that would not do this. I'm sure the teachers speaking are wonderful too, but these were my thoughts as I was sitting there.

I cried all the way home. Blasted! I know it doesn't really matter where he was. Once he opened himself up to it, it could have and would have happened anywhere.

Thankless jerk. Oh, yeah, I forgot, our marriage was a sham and I NEVER was there for him or supported him. Guess we remember things differently.

Sorry guys, I'm on the grumpy bus today. Tomorrow will be better.