As they say, you can't un-ring a bell. Like all cheaters, she wants me to hate her to relieve her guilt (she wrote that in her letter). It is vexing her to no end to know that I refuse to hate her. I despise the situation, but will not allow her to make me hate. She also says she wants me to find it in my heart to forgive her, and I have in a "she knows not what she does" kind of way. As to whether she'll be able to forgive herself remains to be seen.
"In every marriage more than a week old, there are grounds for divorce. The trick is to find, and continue to find, grounds for marriage." -- Robert Anderson