I am now the proud owner of a macbook!!!! yes, after having the same laptop for 7 years i have gotten a new one... and i have gone the apple route. thought this was a good time for the change.
lmdi.. thanks for stopping by. it is good to hear from you. I have to catch up on your sitch as well.
amd; thanks . yes, I dont see any reason to approach this move as a door closing... at least not on my end.
nic, wcw: hmmm, that sounded cryptic the whole single thing. i guess my point is that i spent so much energy these last 2 years either trying to reel H back in or act like i was sooo ok and loving my new freedom: wedding ring on , wedding ring off: all based on what others, family, H would think. Now I just have decided towear it. I have decided I am not single and not looking . I have decided I am "coming out" in the sense that I am being honest about the fact that I would want to try again and do beleive it could work.
Yes, I am still lonely. Last time H and I cuddled was in Nov of last year. I was in LA on business and had a million memories of a trip to LA we took about 5 years ago... it sucked.
The difference is I am doing my thing according to my heart not acording to what I should do, or how not to avoid getting hurt or seeming like a loser or that I am waiitng for my H....
in the end, I am actaully waiting for my H. WIll I wait forever. Dont think so but am I waiting now? yes. am I living out my dreams and moving forward with my career and future: YES!!!!
If there is one thing I have realized is that we all have such different journeys in life. MY H needs to take his and I need to take mine.
I could use some *@%! cuddles and then some though!!!!!
brava
Me: 36 He: 34 no kids Married: 2000 He left: July 05
