Over all a good day. My W and I are looking into airfare/rent car for her to vacation over her Bday week in a month or so back to an old assigmnent. This lead to us spending the night before the flight in New Orleans, early plane out. Now the insinuation is there for some manner of intimacy but certainly not implied. Just a few minutes later she tells me we'll have sex before she leaves on her trip.
Well, she had my attention before but now she's peaked my interest. She proceedes with I'm not really interested in any kissy stuff or oral anything just to have sex.
As much as I can't believe I'm about to type this I'm thinking it none the less. She initiates hardly any touching; hasn't kissed me on the lips in weeks, and no ILY in longer. How can she want to 'go all the way' on so very little. There would appear to be a vast difference in what 'sex' means right now to her than what it means to me. To me with the magnitude of this project we are working on (our R) I'm not sure I want to just have sex. I want it to mean something.
I want her right now probably more than ever before but I almost fell like I may be being test driven or something. Being a male I'll probably do it; I just hope it turns into something more than just a f*ck!
Me36 W34 M13 K B10 B12 Bomb 06/07 Near WAW Me EA over W EA/PA over, contact with OM ended 08/07 W had to decide OM or Me; Still at home
