You seem to understand (even though you don't like) your wife's thought process. Or you're a pretty good guesser ;). It is hard when you dive into an affair to pull yourself back out. Even in an unreal setting you create real connections with people, family, friends. I had a hard time no longer talking to my OM's dad because he was very kind to me and I know where huis son gets his charming personality. He used to sit and talk with me about OM, about life, and he loved my kids. It was hard to let that go as part of a life I souldn't (and eventually didn't want) to keep.
When you're involved in an affair, the only thing that makes sense or matters is your "love" for the OP. No one can change that for you...you have to arrive on your own.
The grass may be greener, but then again, it may also be astroturf. ~Amy C Brown
