You almost got me to snarf when I read this. Sounds like exactly something I would say back when I really felt good about myself. Getting back to that place is a good thing.
Unless I'm having one of my insane moments, I feel just about the same way that you do, except the door is still almost entirely open, not just cracked.
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY