So, I've been taking a different approach (for me) and working on detaching. I'm tired of trying to play a game with my W which is what I feel like I've been doing for the past month. I want this M to work and I'm going to continue to put in the time working my issues so that it can work but I'm done stressing about how every little thing I say and do appears to her. This is what I'm telling myself, the reality does not quite match yet.
I'm in Vegas for work right now and that's really helped me get out of this "it's her or nothing" mindset I've had. I love my W dearly but I have to face the fact that she's not the only woman in the world that I can be happy with. That kind of thinking is a result of my low self-esteem and is not reality. Just chatting up some ladies standing in line to go on a ride at the Stratosphere drove that point home to me. Beyond that, I can't control what she thinks and feels and does. All I can do is support and encourage and love her for who she is, I can't make her send those things back my way. So, either I do that and accept that this is something I might never get from her or I cut my loses and walk. Right now, I'm not ready to walk.
