Thanks so much Abby, LL, Lisa, and SB. I REALLY appreciate the feedback.
Frankly, I'm confused right now. I am beginning to think that the latest issues reside with me and me alone. Why? For whatever reason, I'm feeling very confused and my feelings are all over the place. I mean, I understand that what we go through is wrenching, but jeez...I have so many simultaneous contradictory feelings that it drives me nuts. I'll see my W naked and think mmmm...then I'm reminded by OM and am repulsed (repulsed is a little harsher than I feel...but it's the only one I could think of). I think I'm still trying to process all of this business and OM keeps coming up in my head. I wish I had a time machine...
My W and I had an R talk last night where I mentioned many of the things I mentioned in my last post. Naturally, she was disappointed. The way she sees it is that she's doing things for me and that she feels like she is always being analyzed. She just "wants to be"--her words. I can understand that. I suppose I'd feel the same way.
