MC - nervous and need advice

[forward]

I don't want to "be friends" w/H. It's an unfair request. It's too hard to be detached and to move on and meet others, and that is what I told him. It's like, how could I really move on if H's artwork is on the walls and his books are on the shelves, that sort of thing? I don't need a "husband friend" hanging around if I want to date. How uncomfortable is that?

This mediation has been more like counseling so far, so I am not sure what to think. I think the first thing we need to do is discuss the cost.

Long term, I have to admit that I am thinking of what I would want to do if D. I would like to get rid of this house, too (but I'm not letting on with that unless it comes to D--which sadly it seems to be doing). I need a small place that's more manageable and certainly more me.

OK--I've got to admit that I've been flirting and it's been fun.