Not too much to add j, other than hang in there. We all know there are ups and downs in all of this, and there always will be. You're in a down right now, and it too will end. A lot of people around here say not to get caught up in our Ses moods. Seems like perhaps that's what you're doing.
I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much.