What is reasonable and what is not?

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I hope my exh chooses me and this baby as well. It really doesn't seem like that tough of a decision but I guess for them it is. It's so hard as he isn't living here right now and we are kind of in that limbo area.

Happy your W chose your marriage and is still home. I always wonder if they know the extent of the damage they have done. How they can just expect us to sit quietly after the distrust they have instilled.

Trust is something earned. So far my exh hasn't earned much. Sure he is around alot and being attentive to me, but the second he drives away I flip into suspicious mode. I never used to be this way and would rather not feel it.