Where is the time machine?

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This is so tough! My W will be served D papers today. I have been shedding tears once in a while at work and I hope nobody sees me. I hope nobody has to go through this hell. I still love my W and I want her back in my life, but she is too stubborn to listen.

I never imagined that I have to be the one divorcing her, but this is the only way I can protect my kids. Just to give you a brief history, my W has been spending all her time with her OMs when she has the kids with her. She feels I have no say on what she does in her personal life. She is right, I have no intention to control her and stop her from spending time with someone she loves , but I sure care about my 2 DDs to have them expose to affairs beyond what they are already going through about our separation.

My W asked in an email today what I plan to do with our home - buy her out or sell it and split the gains? I replied that I prefer to discuss these things in person and not via emails. She is going to pick up the kids from daycare and visit my home to talk. She will be served the D papers when she is at my home. I hope this does not turn out to be a emotional explosion. I am having difficulty controlling my emotions. I am praying that God gives me the strength to get through this tonight and act in ways that still shows that I love her and care for her to have her back in my life.