Interesting conversation with the W last night. So, we're at a Karaoke bar because my W had the singing bug. Well, one thing led to another in our conversation and she simply said to me, "It must have been really hard to do what you did when I was acting the way I was." I played it cool, but man, just to hear those words from her mouth, for her to understand what it took for me to do what I did (what all of us here do), was so validating. And she kept talking about it and making simliar comments. I almost can't handle the way things are going...it's like a whirlwind. Things are not perfect, but hell, I can't complain. Things are better than they have been in years. Many years.
Now, I just have to get over the A. It's easier when she's the way she is lately, but I think on it every day. I'm afraid each time I tell her I love her. Heck, I'm gun-shy. I don't want to be trampled again... Unbelievable. I fight hard to get the R I want and now I'm "hesitant." This sh!t is hard...but not as hard as it was only a few months ago.
I played it cool, but man, just to hear those words from her mouth, for her to understand what it took for me to do what I did (what all of us here do), was so validating. And she kept talking about it and making simliar comments. I almost can't handle the way things are going...it's like a whirlwind. Things are not perfect, but hell, I can't complain. Things are better than they have been in years. Many years. 
