I have to agree. Stop agonizing over this OM sitch. Your just going to drive yourself nuts. Do you have a jt cell bill? If so just rip on the payment tab and toss the rest in the trash. Do your best not to look. If you actually have to call and request a transcript, stop, stop, stop! Just don't do it. If you want to repair you M then what good is it to know this? It might drive you further away and you don't want that.
Me: 30 EX-H: 37 DD: 5 Separated 6/07. MC for months, EX-H quit MC. Divorce Final 8/14/08. Trying to move on with new life.