why don't I listen to my own stories?

[Trixi]

I have only heard ILY 2 different occassions since July 5th. I guess I should take what I can get? I dunno.

One thing that I thought was positive is that he left one of his guitars here. He had taken all of them to his apt and was bringing one back and forth. While I made dinner the other night he practiced, worked on some songs and I told him that it was nice to hear him playing again.

When he left yesterday morning, he went towards the guitar (which I expected) but then he only grabbed his tuner (which I did not expect.)
But, perhaps this is more of feeling TOO comfortable?

When we were talking this weekend about the possibility of reconciling in the future, I said that we probably would need to go thru a "process" so that we didn't just end up in the same pickle. He said "I am sure you will read some books on what to do and then you can tell me about them." He said it sorta tongue in cheek because I have SOOO many self-help relationship books, but he also acknowledged that we would need to do 'something.'

Edited to add that he also said he "wasn't trying to lead me on" "was not using me" & "can't guarantee what's going to happen in the future" ; these were all peppered thru out the conversation in addition to hopeful comments.