Hey WW, MAL, and KAW, I knew my comments would get some "goats."
So, this weekend hasn't been as bad as all the other weekends since finding out about my W's A. However, today I got that weird feeling that she's communicating with OM. Like I briefly mentioned on LL's thread, I think maybe it's because things are going well and I'm worried about sabotage. I mentioned my fears to my W and she was nice about hearing me out and reassuring me. I still wonder though...but it's a cheeseless tunnel...
In any case, since everyone likes posting lyrics on the BB, I thought I'd post one set of "rough" lyrics that I wrote to record in my FIL's studio. As many of you know, I play guitar (and only occasionally write lyrics). This was written in the middle of one night post 1st bomb, but pre-DBing, so you know where I was coming from at the time...
Quote: Actions Scream Louder than Words
You tell me one thing but you do something else Actions scream louder than the words you express
What I'm promised one day is changed in a whim Threaded through woven words you so easily spin
Why is it so hard to do what you say This is my trust you so easily betray
Are these petty things really worth the effort Or is there some greater purpose to your hurt
A conscious attempt to try and push me away Or perhaps subconsciously not wanting to stay
This is the second-guessing world I live in And most of the time I keep it all within
I grow weary supporting the love for four For you, I wish it didn't seem like such a chore
The argument's the same, just a new venue Another choice on the household menu
CHORUS Booze and cigarettes have become your religion And a bar on Thursday has become your temple Many would sell their soul for what you've achieved All of our love is there for you...and you want to leave
Do you see the choices that you are making Do you see the impact of your taking
Tell me how this is positive for us Convince me this is helps our situation
What do you see when you look in the mirror A portait of a woman that isn't quite clear
So, I've written a total of three songs since the 1st bomb. Only one song have we put to music (not this one). I let my W hear it before I began DBing and she pretty much had no reaction. I was very hurt because I thought maybe it'd get through to her...even just a little. I was wrong...
I'm trying not to be a downer. Just reminiscing and sharing something with you guys that shows something of myself and my situation. Things have been pretty good lately.
