So I've solved the whole puzzle. The bunny is the innocent pre-pubescent girl who is sexually immature, the monkey is the horny adolescent girl who wants to be f*cked/done, the lioness is the mature sexually assertive woman who knows how to f*ck and how to do you and the swan is the mature well-f*cked, sexually-satisfied woman. (The cow is an adjunct to the swan being the woman who is willing to let you f*ck her even though she isn't particularly horny out of a spirit of mature generosity) Because I am a Type 7 dopamine fiend I naturally tend towards the monkey mode so I need to balance that tendency by figuring out how to render myself "well-f*cked" sexually and non-sexually. The mistake I've made in the past is in trying to move from monkey to bunny which means I've tried to render myself unf*cked or LD rather than well-f*cked and satisfied. Partially this is due to the fact that I forgot what that felt like. I was thinking that NG reminded me a lot of the lover I had right before my 2bx and then it dawned on me that the two men weren't so much alike. It was just that I was more like myself as the swan relative to those two men. That old lover always used to play the song "GLORIA" for me. You know the one that goes:
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She comes around here Just about midnight Ha, she make me feel so good, Lord I wanna say she make me feel alright
Comes a-walkin' down my street When she comes to my house She knocks upon my door And then she comes in my room Yeah, an' she make me feel alright
G-L-O-R-I-A (GLORIA) G-L-O-R-I-A (GLORIA) I'm gonna shout it all night (GLORIA) I'm gonna shout it everyday (GLORIA) Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah Looks so good (GLORIA) alright Just so good (GLORIA) alright, yeah
That's it. I'm cured. I'm going to leave the BB for a while. I wish you all the very best.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
