I've been away for a while, so I'm now getting caught up. So sorry to hear about your situation. I don't have kids and am not at the point of D (we're still separated, and she isn't saying anything about what she wants), so I feel kind of helpless. All I can say is you are doing the right thing in protecting the kids. It hurts, but it's the right thing to do. Keep at it; we're here for you. Things won't get better right away; they may even get worse in the near term, but in the long run I am convinced you will be happier. You strike me as a guy who's getting on with his life in a positive direction, one day at a time. Keep working on yourself; be the best you can be, and you will attract true love. That's all any of us can do.