September 16th Normal day. Doing stuff around the house and yard. W seemed a bit distant all day. Got the kids in bed, made guacamole and watched TV. I tried doing a romantic gesture. Put on our wedding song during and asked W to dance in the candlelight. She was very hesitant and seemed uncomfortable with the dancing. Think that was a mistake. Talked a bit. She’s not ready. Talked in bed a little bit. Talked about the frustration I was having. Told her that when I looked at her and felt the desire I do, I felt like I was looking in the bakery store window at a delicious cake that I couldn’t have.
