Okay, part of the problem with the whole swan discussion is that the part of me that I think is the swan doesn't write or verbalize very well. I guess she is mute. Anyway the point I was trying to make in the previous post is that in the context described I was feeling very self- satisfied, confident and validating about my sexuality and that is what I was signaling to NG. So, I suppose I might consider how this aspect of my personality might play out in other contexts. If I think about it what I'm really saying is that I should strive to become more like the woman I usually am right after sex and less like the woman I usually am right before sex. Kind of like I should move through life like it's a no doubt done deal so I am very calm, satisfied and confident. Pretty much exactly like a woman who has just been well-f*cked.
Anyway, I thought you guys might be amused to learn that I am almost certainly going to be dating another semi-famous African-American "artist". I'm probably going to date a couple other guys too. One is a WASP but he has a good attitude and my kind of politics. I have to figure out how to date without making rules for myself because when I make rules for myself that is usually a sign of low functioning.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
