Quote: So, I have a question that's been haunting me lately: Do you guys ever think we'll be able to feel comfortable around our Ses again? I mean, totally comfortable? Right now, and I know the pain is still fresh, I feel as though our R will be tainted forever and that I will always have to be somewhat guarded. What say you? Is it that trust issue again?
so often we hit the same issue at the same time.
as I drove home from the store this afternoon...I was happy singing along with the radio and being goofy with son...it reminded me of the summer and thus reminding me of h having not been here...I was relieved to know that he is now home and "trying" but I was saddened and wondered will I always be reminded of this bad "thing". I decided to not spend the rest of my day stuck in the past...thought to myself..as I yawned...will I fall asleep again tonight...or will I stay awake with h?? what will we do??? then decided to just focus on how I was going to get all the bags and the kids in the house with out too much kaos...and don't ya know as I drove up the drive way h called on my cell...
ok jethro wtf is LL rambling all this onto your thread..because you see (gee LL actl like she knows it all doesn't she?) I could have sat and became "stuck" in the past but didn't and when I decided to shove it back there (at least this time) something nice happend (h's call)
will we always remember..yes and I think we should...will it always be painful...probably not....more like a little sad...like looking back at your youth...at times you miss it but you know you're better of now. (I hope)
when you feel things falling back into the old patterns...remember that it takes two to continue that pattern...sometimes it takes one to do the work...just because w may slip back to some old ways doesn't mean you have to allow yourself to go there too.
it does get easier...it does get better...it does take work and effort.
