Hey everyone. Thanks Lisa...and SBH, I paid you a visit...
So, I had a little R talk last night with W. Really, this last week has been very difficult for me. I think that I'm seeing some of the old patterns in our R and am uncomfortable. I told this to my W last night and she again promised to work on things. It's frustrating because although I see her trying a little, she never really goes outside the box. You know what I mean? I do my best to try and make her happy...always have. She typically goes through the motions, but does it out of obligation, not because she wants to make me happy. I know I've said this before, but it's annoying. Also, she hasn't been trying too hard this last week...more going through the motions. I told her I will not settle for what our R was before...that I expect certain things. In fact, I told her that I wanted a W that loves me and tells me so, that wants to be with me, and wants to make me happy. Heck, I don't want this R if it's going to be crappy. It ain't worth it... I also made that clear (but I was nice about it)...
So, I have a question that's been haunting me lately: Do you guys ever think we'll be able to feel comfortable around our Ses again? I mean, totally comfortable? Right now, and I know the pain is still fresh, I feel as though our R will be tainted forever and that I will always have to be somewhat guarded. What say you? Is it that trust issue again?
