MC - nervous and need advice

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SH, I guess I would say that I think I needed to GAL even more than I did. For example, I could have taken myself to NYC on my own years ago, and met up w/friends since H doesn't like to travel.

But honestly, in a lot of ways I DID GAL and despite my attempts, H didn't want to be included in it. I can say that I tried to interest H in many activities to do together and bottom line seemed to be that H just wasn't interested.

I think H was severely depressed which may explain a lot of it.

But I am also considering that maybe he never really was interested in me. The He's Just Not That Into You thing.