Puddle hit a lot of things on the head for you. I'll just say that, a while back, you were focused on 'same ol' CVA.' Seems to me it's not the same ol' CVA. You still get a little angry at times, but you recognize it quickly and apologize for it as well. I think that's still pretty new behavior for you, right? You're also moving on regarding the house, that's good to. Anything to keep you from feeling like you're in a rut. Looked at one way, you're setting yourself up for a long term sep or D. Looked at another way, you're trying to find a place for you that's comfortable and that you could take your kids to for a night or two at a time, if you wanted, so that you'll be in a better frame of mind to keep DBing (sleeping on a blow up mattress at our age isn't necessarily a good thing -- though they can be pretty comfy). Plus, it's a good investment for when your W opens her eyes and shouts 'Eureka, it's a new CVA and I love him ever so much.'
And, Puddle, were CVA to sublimate ALL of his sexual energy, he'd own Houston by the end of the year.
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Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
