I asked H to leave; regret-now what?

[Luluber1]

There is a lot to be said about GLA and staying busy. In the last entry I started to panic-which is the wrong thing to do-and felt hopeless again.
I remembered to breathe and think, what would help me get closer to my goals? So I started rereading DB and some of the other posts where spouses have mentioned the D word.
I got out some paper and started out with writing a letter about how I was feeling, then I looked at it from the viewpoint of DB and found that I was getting on the pity pot again and being self-righteous again. Then I tore the letter up and concentrated on my DB goals for the next week.
Then I put on my mp3 player and went and did some gardening.
Luckily I had some activities planned for the weekend and I went about getting myself ready for them and kept pushing the word "divorce" from my mind.
It seemed like uplifting items crossed my path in the next 3 days: hearing great Christian music, ran into someone who had been separated a couple of years ago and hearing her DB story, finding some messages from church service which "talked" to me regarding anger, true intimacy, and faith.
The weekend turned out pretty well and I found a good deal of comfort from being with friends and family, without rehashing any of my separation problems.
I did have to email my H today to give him a message regarding an important business situation and an hour later he responded positively and thanked me. I didnt' respond because I was no longer on the computer and two hours later he telephoned me-I didn't answer because I wasn't home, but I did return the call a couple of hours later and he was pleasant and thanked me again. I said "you're welcome" and he asked me if I'd leave an item on the porch for him tomorrow afternoon; it's an expensive item so I said I would be home and would give it to him if he'd like and he said okay, thanks.

That action achieved two of my new goals for the week (don't panic/get angry and he made a positive contact with me). Although these are small steps it was really important to me. Also, I haven't heard any more on the D word so I'm keeping my mind/heart together and will continue to DB.