ok, ya got me. why do people seek from you that which you are not {anymore}?
Because. Duh. I have yet to state what I AM now. All I have said is What I AM NOT... because I'm not quite sure what it is I AM now... and I'm not quite ready to let go of What I Was.
It's like I'm straddling a fence... trying to BE both sides of it, enjoy both sides of it... and ignore the fact that the fence is digging me in the azz.
By saying "I'm NOT this or that..." I'm trying to leave my options open. In so doing, all it will do, if I choose to stay on the fence, is make me confused, scatter my energy... and keep me from whole-heartedly pursuing what, to me, I AM now.
