Nic, I'm so sorry for what has transpired today. What an oaf! To send you an email versus telling you in person. That, to me, was very disrespectful and he also says he has no backbone to do anything properly.
Everyone has posted wonderful things, but the one posting that sums up all that we feel for you this day is what always posted. She's right, you know. No matter what else you think right now, he's given you the most beautiful and powerful gift of all--the freedom to not look back.
Nic, I know that you wanted to try again to reconcile, but God has a special plan for you and your family and right now, your h isn't a part of that plan. Work through the pain, allow it to wash over you and then some day very soon, you'll begin to see the plan that God has for you. It's all there, just waiting for you to heal a bit and then the world will open up to you to meet someone who was meant to be w/you for the rest of your life.
Now about the oaf, let him go. He's been a mixed up kid for a long time and believe me, you deserve far, far better than what he's been dishing at you for a long time. Nic, you are going to be okay. Give yourself time to cry and get it out of your system. None of us are saying it will be better tomorrow, but it will be better in the future. Do what you must to make yourself feel better.
We are all here for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
