Hi Bluepoet! I remember you from when you first posted. I am sorry your M ended up in D.
I don't really have any advice ... just continue finding things to do that you can be passionate about, and have fun. Life is too short to wallow too long on the what-ifs, although it is understandable that one gets sad sometimes over things that are possibly lost. Try and enjoy the present, let go of the past, and let the future take care of itself (I am trying to live by this now, and it's working a little).
Perhaps it was too soon to start a new R? I would say, give yourself another year of growing dependent on yourself first, before finding a new man (or even renewing a R with your XH, if he comes back into your life). It is nice to have a man's shoulder to lean on, but this is where we women give over our personal power, expecting the men in our lives to solve our problems, or make us feel better.
Just a thought! Take care!
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim