SingleAgain I understand what you are saying. I see a doctor tommorow. I wouldn't jump off a bridge, I admit I would be too scared for that but I do think about less painful ways to go. I admit I need help and am sorry for acting the way I do. It's just right now I can't get over my wife leaving and/or being with a OM. I'm hoping the doctor can do something for me. Most of the time it seems that everyone would be better if I went to sleep and never woke up. I feel hopeless and not sure if there will be any hope for my wife to come back. That's the only thing that keeps me going is the chance she will come back. I would totally lose it if the year passes and she files for divorce and remarries this OM at some point. As long as there is a chance, there is part of me wanting to keep alive but I don't know what I will do 1 yr from now if she files for divorce
