Thanks everyone for your comments. I'll try and respond separately because I really appreciate all of your feedback.
Nop:
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you have to gauge just how much of the crap is being generated by you in the "find a better mate" equation. That's a bit tricky to do.
I know. It's very tricky. The problem I keep coming back to is that I don't like myself sometimes when I am with him. I lose myself. That is not his fault. But I can't seem to get passed it. And I definitely lose myself sexually. I'm just not who I feel I am inside when I am around him. And now on top of that mountain is the fact that part of me doesn't feel good about taking him back. I know it is better for the kids but not necessarily for me.
