Last wednesday I shifted my energy and basically took most of the 180 theory as well as taking care of myself. My wife is still confused and emotional with all her so called love and feeling for the OM. I let her be and exercise, write and just try to feel good about myself. I actually am, which probably helps a lot as well.
On friday OM sent an email that perhaps we should meet in person. I know him and we belong to the same athletic club so it made some sense. I honestly had no idea what to expect but I prepared by staying positive and strong.
He was terrified, and nervous. I believe he was as sorry as he said and also the fact that he said he regrets ever taking a friendship and turning it into a romance, I believed that as well. I had a few scripted words that I said and then we just kind of sat there.
He misses our dogs, which he will not see, the dinners all 4 of us had together, the whole real life that exsisted. It was hitting home and it was hitting home with my W as well. I think that for us, this odd meeting brought a lot of reality and some closure to the actual sexual affair.
Their feelings might still linger, but the dimmer switch is slowly turning.
Then in the car on our way home, the first song, literally the first song, was our wedding song.
I just sat silently and drove.
Not out of the woods by any stretch, but surely we are on a positive swing, and I am letting my wife be and sort herself out.
