Listen to Mark and Saffie. They are giving you golden advice.
Here's what I want from you: get angry. Not violent, just angry.
Find your raw, male strength and tap into it.
Your wife is screwing another man and wants to leave you for him.
Are you going to roll over an allow them to mock you?
You can be stronger and better than you are.
The more pathetic, sad and miserable you act, the worse it gets, and the more she'll feel justified in kicking you while you're down. Yes, she'll do that.
When I was mess -- someone from this board called me and asked me a simple question: Picture yourself at 75. Do you want to be broke, alone and miserable? Because that's where you are headed with your attitude.