My H is still trying. But I just can't let him in. It's me. I know it is. I'm the one with bigger problems. I can't accept what he gives. Why? Why? Why?
I keep questioning whether my "happy states" are just a bunch of BS to cover up my pain. That the way I REALLY feel is unattractive, unsexy, unpassionate, bored, resentful, etc.
What are the voices in your head saying? What messages do you hear? What makes you think you are “unattractive, unsexy, unpassionate, bored, resentful?” Does your H say this to you, your mom, your dad?
