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[thegoodfight]

Are you a man of faith? If so what you speak of would ruin you afterlife also. You need to seek out help! Like now! Whatever you did you will be forgiven. You can't change what happened but you can change how you handle things from now on! Be what you can for your kids! You survived before your wife you will survive after if that is what happens.

God Bless! Please know you can't run from issues, face them and deal with them! Get help when you need it and know you will be okay it just takes time!