I think it may because if I accept him for him and our M, that I know I'm shutting the door on another life. On having more. On having "an out."
LFL, what is the more? What is it that you think is out there that you can't have within your M?
Don't sell your H short. My XW, after she ended our M and remarried 5 weeks after the D was final, will still get angry and make remarks to me about how I am doing things now and why could I not do them in our M. She acts like I am doing this to spite her. That I can do things with the kids and fearless that I could never do with her.
I grew. I have a better understanding of what it means to be in an R. I learned alot about myself and my contributions to the end of my M. I learned this during my S and wanted to be a better man in my M but my XW had already moved on and was selfish enough not to give our M a chance for the kids. I do respect you for that. My kids are doing okay but they do hurt and I hurt seeing them put in a position that was not their choice.
I told fearless many times how much like her H I was in my M. If I can learn and grow I know you and your H can too. I know you can stay for the kids AND be happy.
I am the man who is loving my kids and will keep them from continuing this cycle of destruction.