(((Puddle)))! Are u sure u don't know me? Funny how someone u have never met may intuitively know me better than someone I have lived with for 17 yrs. If u talked to my W and explained to her the way I think, she would probably listen more to u than me. To her, I am just a rediculous mess who has taken everything out on her and stifled / ruined her life.
Had a bit of a mess today in the car trying to go have fun with the boys at putt putt. I made a turn into the place, probably did not see the car coming and put us in a bad spot. I knew I made the wrong decision but I had already committed. No accident buit close and W sort of gets on me about it. I fired back saying "are u going to critisize my driving now". It went downhill from ther mainly cuz "I" wouldn't let it go. 10 minutes later we get out of the car to go in the place.........ultimately I apologized this evening for acting inappropriaty and not letting it go saying I don't want to act this way and was disappointed in myself. Told her still working on this one. Frankly I have no idea why her comment got to me and told her so.
F, again another out of body exerience as the weekend seemed to go really well.
Talke to S9 as I wasa ouát of the car and W had lagged behiæng. Told him I don't know where this is going just wanted him to know I loved him but that mom not happy with me at all...W asked me tonight what S9 has said
My bed is now "deflating" in the middle of the night, this is sad.
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
