Nanah - Thanks alot! I really liked what you said about him being "helpless" it does make a lot of sense but I just keep thinking about HER and the fact that my H is having an affair. I just want my H back but I want him the way he used to be not who he is now. I've been leaving him alone a lot and I only talk to him when he asks me something (which is usually about our son). I just feel like when I back off and give him space that then we grow more apart then ever. Anyway again I'm about to cry so I must go I just cant stop crying. Thanks again Nanah for your advice and your hug ( I could really use a hug right now).