Sorry to interrupt here... but you know what I've noticed about you? You are way more philosophically deep, and much more humorous, than I would ever imagine a programmer to be. Except, most programmers I've met, who I actually get to open up and talk to me, are anything but shallow and cave man like.
I say this because I just read your post to Sandi over on her thread. When you allow yourself to open and 'let go,' wow, do you ever have it. You kind of remind me of NOP in this way. I remember him saying to me when he started posting again that he was a man of few words. And... that was just not an accurate memory for me. That may be how he is IRL, to most of the masses beyond Mrs. NOP, but... when he decides to do it, my goodness that man can open up the flood gates and write like nobody's business. To me, he is a man of great introspection and detailed thought.
As are you, I think. At least, that is my recent sense of you.
If you chose to do so, I think you and Mrs. Cac could really open up your communication if you decided to do so through writing to one another. ???
Why do I say this. Well... I've been thinking about you and your description of yourself. You spend most of your days in very deep thought, for that is what is required for programming and debugging (especially). I understand that whole sense of 'puzzle' stuff, for it gigs me, too. I don't expect anyone to understand it. I just do it...
Anyways. The other day, my bf came down on Friday... I love having him here, but I did have work to do... and the work I had to do required of me deep thought and concentration. He was cool with it, and I went about my business. (It involved lots and lots of puzzle solving, different files interacting with one another, etc., etc., and I had to pay attention so that any changes I made HERE wasn't going to fck up something THERE. kwis? He was cool with it... but what I did notice... is if he asked me a question while I was in Deep Thought Mode... there was, like... a good 5 minute delay in my responding... and when I did respond... it was sorta 'robot' kind of thing... because I did not, and could not afford at that point, to lose my train of thought.
So... I get done doing what I was doing... but when I come 'out' of that.... I almost feel like a person with a dunce cap on, drool drizzling from the corner of my mouth... as my 'brain' tries to figure out how to reconnect with the world... moving from micro-specific, back to macro-awareness of the world kind of thing. I used to be like this all the time when I worked for a university, and the gazzillion or so things I had to keep straight in my head, as I went about doing MY work...
As I was coming out of that, I honest to God thought of you... because my bf was ready to engage, 'now,' (talk) and I'm still feeling like I was wiping drool from my chin.
And it took me about three hours to get out of it, too. I told him what was going on, so he wouldn't feel hurt.
But I'm thinking of you... leaving work, driving home... coming in the door to Mrs. Cac... and I don't know if you need a three hour window to return to the land of living... but I do very much understand how a question like, 'how was your day?' would be almost more than you can bear. Not on purpose... it just isn't... THERE. It could, almost, send the processors into 'over heat' mode.
It was much easier, when I was decompressing in the company of my bf, to just do 'physical' things that required absolutely NO THOUGHT on my part. I got busy cooking dinner... thank god I had 'thought' about that before hand, and all I had to do was... DO it...
... nod....
I think I 'get' you in a dif way than I perhaps had before.
I even have a point to this... I just have to think it through a bit more... before I can write it out...
