He just came around to talk about bookkeeping topics and the ToDos for the coming up week as I'll be out of town to see my very best friend for a few days. Funny enough - we talked about business again for like only 5 minutes and then got on a personal level again: as I didn't clean up well enough yesterday after work coz I was so devastated he had our waitress complain about me this morning.
He told me he defended my though in front of her and told her that I didn't feel well yesterday. (Which is true, but I hadn't told him that). Told him though tonite. And started crying again. Coz it seems like all of my "friends", employees and customers seem to not be able to really know how to handle the "new" situation and this is stressing me a lot.
I really need some time out - which I am gonna take now. He was really sweet when I told him about all that (which I actually didn't wanna do). Started to caress my hands and cheek and wipe my tears away. Told me he was very "impressed" on how well I handle the situation. We both agreed on the fact that it takes some time and patience to sort things out but that we're both doing a good job. And that it might sound strange: that we agreed on the fact, that even though separated we're still so damn important for each other coz we share a lot of the same responsability and sorrow. Then we hugged each other big time and decided we're gonna show everyone and the world that we're able to sort everything out fine and that we get our place running better and get out of our damn financial misery.
Gee.... and when he left he hugged me big time again and kissed me on the cheeck twice.
It now really seems to me that we needed to pull this emergency break to re-start thinking about ourselves and our stupid behaviour during our R. And each one of us seems to have a different way of sorting his ".hit" out... He with his EA and re-won "independence" (wonder how long he really want's to have it) and myself by realizing that I really need to learn to take better care of myself.
Strange feeling that I now sometimes (mostly when we're by ourselves) feel that we're getting closer than we ever were.
I gotta trust him, innit? I sort my stuff out, he sorts his stuff out. And I need to be patient. Need to become a good DBer with the longterm goal of being able to open a thread in "recent success stories". *giggle*
